How can you not know?
How I miss you, I’m going crazy..
How I want to see you, I want to cry ‘cause I know you don’t..
You say you have to be more selfish..
No, ‘cause you’re always selfish already..
You always say, you want to have your private sphere..
OK! Go get it!
But what about me?
Don’t you even think a little bit about me?
When we see each other at night,
you’re tired already.. I’m tired too..
so we’ll just cook whatever we can..
then you’ll read..
then you’ll be tired..
then you’ll sleep..
But when you have your girl’s night with your friends..
you cook together..
you eat..
you talk..
you laugh..
you play..
until it’s 12 p.m. and you have to sleep..
And whenever you take days off..
you always have something to do..
but too bad.. not with me..
and I?
I’m only able to see you at night..
again..
when you’re dead tired already..
Have you ever thought,
when was the last time,
you really did spend your time with me?
I mean you, the whole you..
And here I am..
blaming my self..
why I always miss you..
when I know, you want to be alone..
and I know, I can’t force you..
thinking that something’s wrong with me..
thinking that I was wrong..
thinking that I should understand you more..
But now I dare asking you..
have you ever tried to understand me?
Am I really being unreasonable?
Am I?
Heidelberg, 22 May 2011
Jes
